before entering uni i never thought i would have to do so much things by myself. my parents still comes to school to pay the fees even when i was already 17 so it was pretty hard to learn to do everything once i got away from home. i never walked alone in my entire life...not until now. so walking alone macholy is considered an independent thing to do.*keyword:macho.i don't run when it rains. i walk. with no umbrella okay* i've learned a lot now. seriously. eventhough i still don't look like i know quite a lot of stuff because in reality i don't. i'm just comparing what i know now than before. at least i can "cook" lol. and i can still survive without a single penny *thanks to those yang menderma ^_^"*..and i'm not afraid to walk alone in the dark when its already late anymore..and i am less afraid of the sun.and i wash my own clothes...anddd make my bed..and lipat my clothes. the only thing that hasn't changed is my bad fashion sense which i don't even bother to know. so yeah. i'm kinda proud of myself. *tears~* haha prasan ohhhh. i can't imagine what is to happen if i am still who i was. i wouldn't have survived the cruel uni world. ecey. i've got nice friends to thank though. really nice people i got to know when i was in alpha. most of them moved on with their lives..not studying in the same campus anymore but i still love them anyways. so eventhough they're not here, i'm not afraid to be alone because i know that whenever i feel like there's no one..they're just a phone call away *when i'm kaye*. tukar topic jap. i've been having tonnes of assignments to do..*duh.which kinda helps cos when i need to search for stuff i'll have to stayback in campus and ade chance nk online wawa* that i dream of them almost 2 days in a row now. asam. oh no yesterday night i dreamt of stupid hantus because the housemate insisted on watching some indon hantu movie. but then again the assignments kinda make me feel useful because i have things to do everyday and i won't get bored. even if i do get bored i still have to do my work so it doesn't really make any difference. rase macam sangat cemerlang =) .

time is running out so i'll post a super short entry just so that people know that im still alive =). so hi people. i'm still here. and yes i've become a very busy girl. i do assignments everyday i don't even have enough time to study. like seriously. i don't even know what's the purpose of having too many assignments anyway. to get my degree? then when to study?? haihhh...why is life so miserable lately? its so not fun to grow up. things get harder, we get busier..and lamer. no wonder adults get cranky and annoying at times even without pms *for woman*. guys i don't know. they say the older they get, the gataler they'll be. i'm not sure if its scientifically proven but oh well.and no i don't mean to be a sexist or whatsoever...i'm just stating an unsure thing and yes i don't know if its right that's why i put "unsure" so don't come blaming me and calling me a sexist. a lot of girls are gatal too so pape pn it will always come to the same conclusion. all sexes are equal in many ways *. some are nice some are not..some are gatal some are not. the usual some some thing. if there is such thing. as i was saying..i think i'll turn out to be the crankiest adult to ever live on earth seeing how teruk i can be at times. trust me, i can really be a pain in the bontot okay.  oh god i'm writing a piece of crap here. xkisah pun. andddd btw i was googling for pictures of "assignment" to show how busy i am but since there's no picture that reflects the buzyness..i'll put this stuff instead. watch it. its gross.

i've been here for like 70 minutes so i guess its time to go home now..continue doing my stupid assignmentS which i don't know when will habis. just when i thought my work is done..the group leaders will come find me and give me more work. how good is that? they should have given me everything earlier right? then i can organize my time properly. gosh i can't stop nagging can i? i know its bad but it feels so good to let it out. so good u should try it. typing your thoughts and feelings won't do any harm u know =) its like self-treatment..like anger management like that. i miss my hometown. sigh.

i guess everybody is well informed that i am a very unlucky girl when it comes to the internet thingy. so yes i'm still using the pc in campus...with a few other strangers i don't know...wasting time here while waiting for my group mates to contact me for a meeting at 2pm. i didn't sleep last night...because for some reason all the ghost stories i heard from friends came to haunt me. Perfect timing.been in campus since 9 am and now its only 1.25 pm..am starving, and sleepy, and tired of walking around campus. i have a very bad sense of direction, really. *yes, i got lost. well technically..because it took me some time to go from one place to another..thank god i know where to find my classes. i may be an idiot but i'm not THAT stupid thank u very much* then again maybe it was because i took my own sweet time walking in slow motion so that i won't get all sweaty and smelly. i'm not rushing so why penatkan badan yang dah penat kan? haihh oh and the malangness doesn't stop here. assignments are piling up *xreti eja so yeah*, duit sudah habis, and its almost midterm. how to live like this? help. *gosh when will this pathetic-ness end??*sighhhh 3 juta kali. i'm a very strong girl aren't i? i'm so proud of myself =) *tears~ daku sangat terharu* prasan. i know. well i better get going..can't afford to post a long interesting article right now *as if pernah je haha ngokkk* but you'll see...later...one day..someday..hmpphhh